crying like there is no tomorrow...

the title speak it out loud!


yesterday, i broke down n cry n cry so hard!
i hate it so much when i'm in that situation!
i've taken a step where i've been listening to all her complaints/dissagreements/ketidakpuasan hati yet i did not utter a single word on commenting on that..
why am i acting that way?
i hv my own reason..i felt that by not commenting i will not hurt her or my own feelings..
however being in silence mode, ppl tend to make a wrong assumption..
ppl think i'm sided to another party...i'm not being supportive..i'm not loving the person so much!
when i heard it, i was so pissed off!
and what is the best thing to do?
i cried so hard! till my eyes are swollen...
luckily it was PH today..so i can hide myself in my own house..


yes i did chat with my friends online...
i try to keep it cool...
tapi ada yg kena marah/i just jwb one word at a time kalau buat lawak ntah apa2 or asking me soklan yg ntah apa2...


ntahla sudah malas nk citer kat org psl masalah nih...
i had enuff of it...
tapi ada jer org nak drag me into that problem!
i hate it so much as i dunno how to tell that person to STOP telling the same stories for gazzilion times!
swallow it n move on pls!


yes yesterday i was at the verge of losing my temper....
i did confide with some ppl...ada yg suruh sabar...
tapi sabar saya pun ada limitnya....
seriously if i had plenty of money..i'm getting the hell out of here..migrating to another country....so that no one able to find me!
yes thinking it to that extend!


hari ini sy tiada mood
makan pun ntah apa2....
nak keluar pun rasa malas...
goodness what is wrong with me!
sedih sy x der sapa yg tahu...
kecewa dgn perangai semua org...
hati saya tiada siapa yg peduli..


sometimes i did ponder, if i'm still unmarried, what will happened to me in future?
myb end up kat rumah pondok??
wallahualam..
till then...