why oh why

papa already back from his trip to the Europe..
tapi mmg dah jangka he wont really go and shop things for us! sigh2
mama kata papa ada la beli Tie Rack Scarf, but he said tak byk yg cantik..huhuhu oh well kalau ikutkan nak jer suruh papa beli kasut Clarks for me, kat sana murah compared here! tapi apakan daya, aku masih berhutang dgn papa beribu2 lemon lagi..huhuhu :P


tadi borak2 dgn mama and i was shocked when she told me that a relative of ours is having a 2nd wife! huhuhuhu kenapa ek bleh terjadi? why are guys like that? makin tinggi pangkat/harta makin menjadi2 ek kegatalan dia..yes i know lelaki bleh kawen sampai 4 but do they ever think how the 1st wife will feel? nak kata tak ada anak, dah ada anak berderet2, tataula what is wrong with some of the guys mindset..what are their needs that need to be fulfill? adakah sbb middle age punya syndrome? i dunno...for me, the husband and wife need to constantly communicate with each other...jgn hangat2 tahi ayam masa awal2 perkahwinan...then after 20 years of marriage membawa haluan masing2
hum i guess this is one of the reason why i'm still reluctant to get married (errr ok it is merely an excuse!) tapi with what is happening around the world, selalu jer dengar org kawen dan cerai, makes me thinking, what will my future will be? i come across something like this before and i confronted with that person..ntahla for me sudah hilang kerpercayaan for that person...err it is nothing to do with Mr.BF ek...huhuhuhu nih orang lain. sedih2...sbb i know few ppl yg family dia bapak kawen dua, how their mothers jadi, how the children turn out to be...it is really a mess
mmg teruk la dr segi emotionally, financially, etc..yg syok si lelaki tue lar yg ada bini baru..mana dia nak kesah hal2 anak2 dgn bini tua tue! gosh! i hate those ppl..konon2 nak berpegang pada ajaran Rasulullah S.A.W...tapi tak ambil sepenuhnya ajaran itu!


I'm sad bila teringat kejadian dulu...it really affects me so much right now...i tried not to think bout it and when my mom told me bout this teringat kembali kisah itu...


i'm sorry if what i'm writing here is a bit clueless for all of you..
bear with me as i need to let it out from my chest.
:(
kenapala aku nih cepat emo! huhuhuhuhu dahla duduk umah sorg2..gosh when talking to mama i wish i can tell her everything but i know i can't..there are things are better left unspoken, not for her to worry..


hum...till then hoping that i will be calm for this coming week