Please be strong!

this entry is a special note to myself

I need to be much stronger..
I have been dwelling with some issues lately...
and when i'm about to move on, something comes up...Masya-Allah besarnya dugaan-MU ini.

this ramadhan, i'm hoping i'll be able to perform all the ibadah with a peaceful mind.
yes, it is so hard for me to move on....i know i shouldn't think bout the past, but it is not as easy as u think!

last night, out of sudden i felt so sad...hati menjadi terlalu sayu..i can't even justify why am i feeling like that...been asking myself what is wrong with me? i dont think i'm under depression or whatsoever...hati terusik sekali sekala tue ada..it is up to me on how to handle the situation..but there are times, i just let myself feel the pain and agony...urgh!

teruk betul diriku sekarang....hati sudah penat
yg mampu dilakukan hanya berdoa kepada-Nya...

ada satu lagi yg telah lama aku tak buat...
which is going back home...
it seems that i've been running away from going back home
scared of getting hurt so much i guess..but i do missed home so much! :(
insya Allah will be going back to Kedah in a couple of weeks for fasting with them..
praying so much that everything will be ok back at home!

till then..
going for my Tarawih prayers later...
insya Allah, hoping that this year i'll be much better than last year...
wassalam...