hati yg sensitif...

hati sgt sensitif sejak 2 menjak nih
when i'm all alone and sunyi, i felt so lonely..
semlm kat ofis out of sudden i felt so sad that i almost cried..
most of my colleagues are bz with their work..agak kesunyian ar..
one of the reason why it triggers my emotion when after breakfast i went to celcom center to cancel my supplementary line. after doing so, i'm feeling sad..ntahla..
some of you may say that why am i feeling like that since i'm the one who ask for the end...
people may have their own perceptions but they may not know what is going on in my mind..
yes i tried to be strong, tried to act normal in front of others...
but it is so painful till that i almost give up...ima told me that it is ok for me to be weak. but if you are the eldest in the family, by hook or by crook you have to be strong..that is the natural traits in a eldest child kot..hehe


i met him today early in the morning..
why?
he came here as we have to settle few stuffs regarding insurance...
tapi jumpa hanya utk 15minutes only...he can't take it...he was so sad..
looking at him i felt i'm the bad person in the relationship...Ya Allah jahatnya aku nih...i have been keeping myself composed during the conversation..i have to be like that as there is no turning back.


semlm, i was so worried...i'm not sure how to handle myself in front of him..
tumpang tido at yana's crib...
nak tau myself and yana were talking heart to heart dr kul 10.30mlm till 2a.m...
hahahahhaha kelakar pun ada gak sbb apa tau? sbb almost everyday we met each other..tapi cara kami semlm mcm tak jumpa 5 thn jer...itula padahnya bila dah jumpa geng sekepala..thanks so much dearie!


now i'm feeling a little sad...
malas nak pikir lagi how am i going to start all over again???
huhuhuhuhuhu seriously at this age, nak kena start dari zero mmg sgt malas ar..
praying so hard i can find someone who able to fulfill my requirements and my parent's requirement...Amin..

friends during this transition period, my blog entries will be a bit personal..
i would like to channel it out here..to let the burden out of my chest so that i will still sane.

till then.